Sarah's post about her life got me thinking about my own life, too.
Where am I headed?
What college is right for me? Chattanooga? Carson Newman? Motlow???!!!
Is Interior Design really what I want to do? What about Business? Or Music Education? Or just Art?
Why can't I be in National Honor society when I am only .1 point off the requirement? Who decided to change the requirements from 3.5 to 4.0? Why did you do that? Did you know I already had it on my resume, or how about that I already had a costume picked out for the honor society halloween party that it 8 months away?
When was it okay for a friend to totally not inform you of anything in their life, such as getting a new boyfriend? Why has this specific friend always treated me like crap? Do they not trust me as a friend? Am I even a good friend?
Why is it so hard to find a daggum limo for prom? Since when is it not okay to drive yourself to prom?
Is it okay that I no longer enjoy church. I have been very busy ever since last December with school and Singers and life, and I have sort of grown out of the habit and desire to go anymore. My Sunday school teacher is rarely there, and when she isn't I feel that I do not get anything out of the lesson we have, for reason I will not go into on my blog. Maybe it is God telling me to go somewhere else, or keep trying harder, or I don't really know. But I really look forward to Big Stuf camp this summer. I am pretty sure I will change my view after that, but until then...?
Why do some people think the world will end in 2012? I know it sounds random and dumb to ask that, but do people seriously go through their life thinking that they know that it will happen then? I don't think it will at all, but what if it does? Will I be able to look back on my life and be happy with it? Will I ever get the chance to graduate college and get married and have kids? Yeah I know it's morbid to say that, but it kinda terrifies me a little bit!
Well after going back and reading all my thoughts, it really sounds like I am some freako emotional-wreck person, but I'm really not. I am actually very happy with my life! I am satisfied with my grades in school and I love my family so so so much! They make me smile. And my best friends are the greatest and I hope we can seriously be friends for a lifetime. I just have alot of thoughts and I get confused about my future alot.
But who doesn't?
I know I have the people that love me who will be there for me through thick and thin, ups and downs.
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at 17 there are so many questions in life that need answers-some you will figure out, some you never will! that is all apart of the ride. keep being the beautiful, sweet, loving, happy girl you are and everything will fall into place for you! and you have one of the biggest supposrt systems in the world-your family!
ReplyDeleteThat really stinks that they changed the requirements! And it is ok to drive yourself to prom. I did it my junior year!
ReplyDeleteI hate that they changed the requirements that makes me so mad. But you are a great friend. I think its the other that needs work. And I think we should just drive to prom. It would make things so much easier.
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